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-Before moving forward in life you must first look back; not a quick glance or a long gaze, delving on the could’ve, would’ve should’ve moments, but spend the time to admire all you have passed through, all of those in your life, and all of those who have come into your life, even if just for a single moment in time.


-Take the time to not only reflect on the mental and physical scars you received, but also take the time to appreciate all you have accomplished in the past year, and all you have failed at. There is truth and meaning behind every door you opened, and growth from every experience you had. Use the time to learn from all you have encountered, and figure out how to take the knowledge with you as you move forward into a new year.


-There is wealth which grows from the roots of the past. So instead of uprooting people, and negative experiences from the past, try to trim the weeds, and every now and then water the roots. Keep in touch and reflect on each moment. Those people no matter how negative or wrong a relationship went; came into your life for a reason. There are no coincidences, only a universal consciousness that is connected with heart vibrations. So, all the people and experiences which you have had, you attracted. They came into your life because of love, hate or curiosity. So remember their words, because out of all that was said, there had to be at least one positive element to take with you as you move forward, and remember the experiences no matter how flawed, or negative, because if it wasn’t something that felt good at the moment, or went well, use the predicament or failure as means to learn and grow. Remember the past, future, and present are all connected as one, one thought in your mind which you control.  


-Not only do you have to look back, but you also have to look within. Look deep into your eyes reflecting in the mirror, and go deep within your heart and soul. Get lost in yourself and find that which holds you back in life, and discover that which will take you to higher places in life. The beauty within you is more powerful than all that which appears to be so worthy of your time, and energy.


-Try spending some time alone each day. Even if just for eleven minutes, try to look deep within yourself, and reflect. Clear out the madness, the world around you, the confines of life, and all that which poisons the mind. Don’t be afraid to be alone, and reflect on yourself. Cleanse your heart, mind and soul, just by sitting in a quiet room, maybe with some soothing music, by going for a walk, by pacing around in figure eights, driving around in your car with no direction, or even by sitting in a café with a fresh brew reflecting on you, as the world passes by. Everything is vibration, so move with the universe, connect with your higher self, and trust your intuition; within you’ll find all the answers you need.


-It is only after connecting with yourself, discovering your true self and worth, believing in all you have within, and not being afraid to conquer your dreams without fear of others opinions or all that which tries to hold you back, that you become free. After breaking free from the shackles of normality, and all that which is considered to be an enriched life or the right way to live, then carry on. Open up a new door, and take the unknown path; pave your way through the year ahead, and never stop until you reach all that you desire. Take only all that which is in your heart and all the lessons learned from the past. And don’t forget to spend some time to reflect, because it are those people, words, and little moments from the past, no matter how negative or positive, which brought you to the present moment, which is fuel to carry on to the future unknown. Use tidbits from the past, all from within, and write your own life. The year ahead is full of blank pages, it’s an open book, so write, write without fear, write without regrets, write without confines, write without status or fitting in, write without convictions in others, write from within, write from the heart, and write your own way.  

Vietnam Vet


-Born March 3, 1949

-Dropped out of high school, started working at the age of 17 doing construction, and fixing, repairing, and racing cars.

-Was drafted 1968 and did 1 tour in Vietnam with the 1st Field Force 297 Transportation Co.

-Was honorably discharged, returned to New Jersey, married his girlfriend, had three children, has two grandchildren and lived his life as a master mason, carpenter, construction worker, and jack of all trades handy man

-He is Domenick P. Tutalo Jr., he is my father, the strong silent type who never hesitates to help others, will make any needed sacrifice to support family or friends, and is a gentle soul who has a loving way with children, but to others he is a Vietnam Veteran, who made the ultimate sacrifice which was to serve his country when his name was called, and deserves all the praise and respect in the world


Modest Marine

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-Born February 6, 1925

-Lived during the Great Depression, lived a life that stretches from horse and carriages, Pearl Harbor, to the atomic bomb, to having a man walk on the moon, a president and other prolific figures who fought social injustice be assassinated, a cultural and musical revolution, Vietnam, the cold war, personal computers, Reganomics, the crumbling of the Berlin Wall, Desert Storm, the internet, Apple iphone,  9/11, the war on terror, the 1st Black President, climate change, touch screen technology, and driverless cars 

-Dropped out of high school and enlisted into the Marines March 5, 1943

-Was sent to the Pacific with the 4th Marine Division

-At the age of 20, weighing 120lbs, was a flamethrower who carried 80lbs of two tanks containing fuel and compressed gas on his back on Iwo-Jima February 19 – March 26 1945

-While trying to advance and take the air field, his platoon of 30 men was ambushed and picked off one by one by a sniper in a smoke stack. He was one of three who survived.

-After fighting on Iwo-Jima for the entire 36 days, with no place to hide or take cover, out of about 70,000 American soldiers, about 20,000 were killed; he walked away from Iwo-Jima without a scratch

-When he returned to New Jersey he married his sweetheart and had three children.

-He lived the American Dream, raising a family, and working hard

-He sacrificed two and ¾ years of his life as an enlisted Marine, and spent the rest of his life as a Marine, living it, being it, and joining other service men and women from his generation, and now for many reunions throughout the years

-He is from the greatest generation, who fought fascism, helped preserve, our freedoms and pave the way for the American way of life so many take for granted

-He recently lost his best friend, and brother in arms who fought beside him on Iwo-Jima, Mike “Iron Mike” Mervosh, and is now the last man standing from all of his friends and fellow Marines who fought in the Pacific during WW II with him and is still striving, going strong, and living life as a Marine

-He is currently 92 years old, has 3 children, 11 grandchildren, and 12 great grandchildren

-He is Domenick P. Tutalo, the “Modest Marine”, my grandfather, and to all a veteran who deserves all the praise and respect in the world

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In Time


No matter how much social and political turmoil there is around the world

No matter how extreme the weather has become

No matter how ridiculous puppet politicians, MSM, Alt. Media, the far left, the far right, or whatever political party you choose to support and surrender your own thoughts to are

No matter how blindly misled people can be with deceiving political rhetoric, hip-pulor trends, trendy anti-movements, cult followings, or with fear porn

No matter how much evil there is in the world which harms and kills humans with senseless, and horrid acts of violence

Know this, people are waking up to truth, to that which controls us all, and are starting to see the prison without walls. And no matter what facets or tactics are used to suppress the human race, or whenever disasters happen, the true spirit of human beings rises up, and people from all walks of life come together. That divide created by constructive chaos (problem, reaction, solution) becomes obsolete.

In a time of disorder and divide, in a time of universal deceit and manipulation, and in a time of global and cosmic change, the people have been affected both consciously and physically. The past year of political unjust has uprooted and broken a nation a part, the blood of the innocence still spills from the repetitive mindless acts of terror, and raging natural disasters have ruined the lives of many. As we in the United States of America, try to cope, come together, and rise up against the forces which try to divide and devastate us, let’s not forget about our fellow humans from other parts of the world who are faced with similar adversities. There are too many events to name which have happened recently and in this past year, that have affected the lives of many, which we mustn’t forget or forget to support to find solace and heal the wounds, both emotionally and physically, but the place which currently stands close to my heart is Mexico.     

Mexico, a nation I consider my second home, a place filled with life, beauty, and an intriguing culture which has been hit with a combo of massive earthquakes this past September is still in a state of disarray. The earthquakes have crippled most of central and southern Mexico, where my wife’s family is from. Not only have major cities such as Chiapas, Mexico City, Puebla, Morelos, and Oaxaca been affected, but the little unknown lesser villages and towns that reside in the mountains or on the outskirts of these cities have been damaged as well. The terrain and isolation has made it very difficult to get much needed supplies to these people. Also the rebuilding and recovery efforts will be very costly. While the Mexican government and MSM focuses on the major cities, and the government tries to make any political advances they can with such a tragedy, it’s good to know that the true spirit of Mexico has been able to rise up from the ashes. And in conjunction with the solidarity of the people of Mexico, it’s good to know that there are some genuine public figures out there willing to support the people. Bravo to Diego Luna and Gael García Bernal. There’s still time. Please help support Mexico and its people. 

10 Years


It took me 10 years to complete my first novel Esperanza. Many notebooks were filled, many napkins and scraps of paper were written on, and many drafts were written, rewritten, and changed. During this ten year journey I was also dealing with and battling with the confines of life, internal and external obstacles, juggling multiple jobs, and dealing with and facing positive and negative people. And no matter how many times I wanted to quit because it got harder each day, I was faced with road blocks and failure, it seemed like a waste of time or wouldn't amount to anything or it seemed to never end, I never stopped. I kept writing even when there seemed to be nothing to write, I worked on other writing projects. Even when people with big egos, those who are quick to judge without knowing me personally or what I'm doing, the wicked ones who looked down upon me with pity, doubt, and disbelief still I carried on. Evil looks, hurtful words, or being laughed at used to bother me and affect my emotions and decisions, not anymore. The 10 years I spent writing Esperanza not only made me a stronger person mentally and in the heart but also taught me many things about being human, chasing and achieving dreams/goals, and becoming successful and evolving as a spiritual being. Here are some of the basics I’ve learned, which have worked for me in life and as a writer.

  • Patience. Without it you'll break emotionally and give up too soon. You won't be able to see your true potential or that in others. You'll miss out on seeing the beautiful rose that grows from shit.

  • Discipline. Without structure, balance, and self-control you'll break during stressful situations. Discipline is what I learned from soccer, keeping fit physically and mentally, having a strict work schedule to develop my skills and character, and being prepared and able to overcome any barriers and/or changes.

  • Vision. Being able to foresee your final destination. Dreaming big yet focusing on the little paths and goals needed to overcome before reaching the big goal. You have to visualize each realistic and optimistic path and outcome. Like a chess player and a soccer player you have to see 4-6 moves/plays ahead from the present moment. This makes you prepared, one step ahead of an opponent/obstacle and better prepared to face failure, transition, and make the necessary moves to surpass your original intent.

  • Work ethic/time management. These two work together. Work ethic is what I learned from soccer. Training/writing everyday harder and knowing there is someone out there doing what I'm doing, has the same dreams and is pushing just as hard or harder to succeed. You have to push harder, to perfect your craft. You have to be better than not only those seeking the same dreams/goals but better than yourself each day. In order to work hard you need to manage your time. Create and follow a strict time schedule that fits in with your job, family time, free time, obligations, and any sudden event that occurs. Find and make time to write. When I was single I had all the time in the world. When I had a girlfriend then got married that time was split in half. When I had a daughter it was gone. So instead of giving up or sulking I made an effort to make time. When my wife was at work and I wasn't I wrote. When my wife and daughter were asleep late at night or in the early hours I wrote. When I had a 1-2 hour window of free time during the day instead of watching Netflix or surfing the internet I wrote. There are 24hrs in a day there are no excuses for not finding 1-2 hours a day to write or work on your dreams/goals. 

  • Love. Love yourself, not in an egotistic manner but in being proud of who you are. Love what you are doing with your life or the dream you're chasing. Love those who are important to you whether it’s family, friends, or people from all walks of life who somehow connect with you, respects you, and/or challenges and helps you grow as a human being. Love is the force which binds us, fuels us, and guides us, and will help you achieve your dreams and bring you happiness.

  • Believe. Believe in yourself. No matter how misguided the path you are on may seem, no matter how much advice or opinions you get from others, or from the so called experts, the only voice that will guide you in the right direction towards your final destination that you see fit for you and the only road that will take you there is YOURS. All the answers you need are in your heart, so trust that feeling of knowing, and go with it. It may fail or get you into trouble, but ultimately it’s not only being true to yourself, but in the end you could look back at the journey you took with no regrets. Help, guidance, and advice from others is great, we need that in life. Teams are what win, not the individual, but ultimately in the end, it’s the individual actions that make the character you are. Believe in yourself, and then others will believe in you, and come to you for help, for guidance, and advice.

  • Adaptability. Being adaptable as a human being is a necessary survival trait. It’s how we evolved, and it’s how you will be able to face change, failure, roadblocks, and anything else that gets in the way of your dreams/goals, and growth process. Being adaptable will enable you to be able to face any challenges without fear or excuses, such as being unprepared and enable you to overcome any feat and achieve greatness.

  • Be Positive. There are a lot of negative people in the world. There will always be someone out there speaking negative about you, who won’t like you for some reason, either because of the way you live your life, or the way you look. There will be negative people who won’t agree with you or believe in you. Sometimes they will be direct, use social media, or other times they will gossip with the flock of negative hive mind people that reflect who they are, and try to rally up an uneducated, programed, blindly misguided zombie mass of people to go against you and all you believe in. That’s the sick world we live in. We see this everyday on the News, on T.V shows, in the media, in magazines, on the internet, in the office, in the schools, in any sort of work place, in arenas and stadiums or gathering ground where there are people. DON”T GET SUCKED INTO THIS NEGATIVE WORLD OR WAY OF BEING. This negative mentality and negative people will bring you down, and divert you from your dreams/goals. Even when times are tough stay positive, and carry on, there will always be brighter days ahead. Leave behind negative people and influences; they are the cancer of the human race.